Demi Moore Interviews with Harper’s, Says She Might Not Be Worthy of Love

So Demi Moore sat down with Harper’s Bazaar and did an interview with a friend of hers, Amanda De Cadenet, and the two talked about what it’s like to be a lady in showbusiness, trying to balance family and fame and relationships and cake, and it was all well and good until Demi pulled out her latest “I’m putting on a brave face and jutting my chin out whilst gritting my teeth and passive-aggressively wanting your sympathy but don’t pity me” card, and then I kind of lost all train of thought and started really considering how damaged this woman’s self-esteem is – and for how long (hint: an apparent long, long time) it’s actually been going on.

Here’s a few key excerpts from the interview, which you really need to read in its entirety.

Demi Moore on her feelings about her body:

I have had a love-hate relationship with my body. When I’m at the greatest odds with my body, it’s usually because I feel my body’s betraying me, whether that’s been in the past, struggling with my weight and feeling that I couldn’t eat what I wanted to eat, or that I couldn’t get my body to do what I wanted it to do. … Sweet and savory. I think I sit today in a place of greater acceptance of my body, and that includes not just my weight but all of the things that come with your changing body as you age to now experiencing my body as extremely thin — thin in a way that I never imagined somebody would be saying to me, “You’re too thin, and you don’t look good.”

I find peace when I don’t see my body as my enemy, when I step back and have appreciation and look at all that my body has done for me. It’s allowed me to give birth to three beautiful children, allowed me to explore different roles as an actor, allowed me to be strong. You can’t look at yourself in the mirror and tear your body apart. You have to look at it and go, “Thank you. Thank you for standing by me, for being there for me no matter what I have put you through.”

Demi Moore on changing into pajamas on an airplane:

My real, other guilty pleasure, and it’s totally stupid, is those long-distance flights where you are able to change into those pajamas they give you without ever leaving your seat and nobody can see your body exposed. It is an absolute guilty pleasure in the sense that I derive pure joy and some weird sense of accomplishment over being able to do it.

On how Ashton cheating on her really kind of translated into “I’m not living up to my full potential” somehow or another:

I think what scares me is not having the courage to reach my full potential … which means that I would allow fear, insecurity, and doubt to rule me and that I would ask for only a little of what is actually there for me. It would mean that I would be settling. And so for me, it’s not just about reaching my potential in terms of my career. It goes more to the idea of being whole, of loving oneself. And I think there is no way to reach your fullest potential if you don’t really find the love of yourself. If I were to answer it just kind of bold-faced, I would say what scares me is that I’m going to ultimately find out at the end of my life that I’m really not lovable, that I’m not worthy of being loved. That there’s something fundamentally wrong with me.

She’s a warrior, too:

“I think it’s more that I have very strong warrior energy. Yeah, I’m a warrior.”

After reading through the entire interview, which you can check out in all of its power-to-the-people glory here, I find that I’m pretty impressed by Demi Moore, as a person, on the whole. But man. I’m going to warn you. This interview gets really, really sanctimonious and holier-than-thou and self-deprecating-but-not-actually about three questions in, so I’m giving you the heads-up right now. Don’t say I didn’t warn you, and don’t worry – you’re not the only one who could think only of Gwyneth Paltrow and her naggy-ass, finger-wagging mug throughout the whole thing, either.