Lisa Marie Presley, who was married to Michael Jackson for 20 months, has taken to her blog to try and work out the emotions and feelings that she’s grappling with today. It’s long, but heartfelt.
Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.
I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.
At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.”
I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.
14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.
A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.
The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.
All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.
I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.
Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.
I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.
His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.
At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.
He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.
When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.
Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions.
I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.
I was in over my head while trying.
I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.
The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.
After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.
Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.
At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.
As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.
Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.
He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.
I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.
He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.
I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.
The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.
I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.
~LMP
Wow. I actually teared up a little, reading this.
THIS is how to acknowledge the WHOLE person. No glossing over the problems and pain. Instead, she says “He was not perfect. He did some bad things. I loved him anyways and I’m crushed that he is gone.”
It is so much more honest and, as such, more touching than the “Oh, he was the best, what a talent! What an entertainer! Don’t think about anything else, lalalalaaa” that most other celebrities are posting, tweeting and saying.
I agree. I teared up a little bit too. And it totally removed any doubt in my mind that their marriage was fake.
Do you mean doubt that it was real?
Nice Glamour Shot, freak show.
And you’re referring to… ?
No she said it REMOVED doubt that the marriage was fake
lisa maries comments to me spoke only of the truth and of someone who knew and cared when you make a human being an idol or demi god wich is inevitable with superfame then the outcome is the human cannot be an image they then try to escape from the image and lose themselves and who wouldnt. i would as elvis once said himself an image is a hard thing to live up to. and to me that says it all. forget the fans of your hereos think about their loved ones because they are the ones that really hurt please take a moment to think. thanks thomas.
I wondered what her reaction to this would be. I also appreciate her honesty. People don’t need to be perfect to be missed and mourned.
Totally agree, Alzaetia. But maybe you guessed that from the other thread! ;)
That was so beautifully written and so honest. He affected so many people in different ways…. I definitely teared up reading that.
when they got married i never thought it was a sham till the press put it out there. i hope that he was happy in the end. if he even knew what that felt like. i know i was happy listening to his music! thank you mj for that!
“The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him”…
That was where I started to tear up a little. How many other people, famous or not, have been through that?
I did, unfortunately. My college sweetheart . We started out just smoking a lot of pot together, and then he moved on to pills and I tried so hard but could not get him to stop. I found out just a couple of years ago that he had passed after OD’ing on sleeping pills. It’s absolutely heartbreaking to leave someone you love because they’re no longer the same person, and have absolutely no hope for themselves to ever get better.
Her words were very moving, and heartfelt. I also never doubted their relationship’s validity, as they were both so completely weird and had such messed up childhoods, that their bond seemed obvious.
Still was a child molester.
What court of law convicted him? He was aquitted of all charges when he faced trial. If someone close to you was accused of such horrible things & then found not to be guilty would you still reference them as a child molester? I’m so glad that everyone can be such a judge when they never seen all the evidence that got him aquitted. So many lives are ruined b/c somone is accused of something and the public finds them guilty even when a court of law has found them innocent.
He was only convicted in the court of public opinion. It is completely ridiculous. Here are some facts from both cases.
In the first case, the mother of the boy who was allegedly molested repeatedly said that he was not molested. The father who was pursuing the molestation case was caught on tape saying how he was going to win big in this case and make lots of money. The father settled out of court for $22 million. The cast never went to court and the father refused to proceed with a criminal trial. Keep in mind that you can still pursue criminal charges regardless of civil settlements.
In the second case the mother of the child accused Michael Jackson. She contacted the same lawyer who had won the settlement in the previous case before she even contacted the police. She had previously wrongly accused 1 male and 1 female JC Penny security guards of sexually assaulting and beating her and wrongly imprisoning her family after she was caught shop lifting. She settled out of court for $144 thousand. Her older son who was the witness in the Michael Jackson case gave a lot of conflicting testimony over where Michael Jackson touched his younger brother and whether his younger brother was wearing pjs or underwear or if his younger brother was in the bed or on the floor. Basically the poor kid couldnt keep his story straight. He also admitted to lying in the previous case for his mother. In this case MJ was acquitted of all charges.
really?
i never had the chance, before, of reading words from one of the molested one´s.
Really, i´m sorry if michael really molested you, hope, at least, you were one of the kids who´s parents shut their mouth for 20 millions.
Uh.
Any man that says “I see nothing wrong with sleeping in the same bed as little boys” should not be glamorized to be a hero.
Bruno, the parents that were paid millions to keep quiet are fucked up as well.
S- I never said that he should be glamorized as a hero. Just that he was never convicted of child molesting, therefore shouldn’t be classified as one. However, I do believe that he should be reconized as a musical icon.
Bruno- What would make you assume that I am “one of the molested ones”? Your response makes no intelligent arguement to the comment I posted. In fact, it makes no arguement at all. Just an unintelligent remark with punctuation from an unitelligent person.
Dumbass… He wasn’t talking to you. The irony of calling him an idiot while making such an obvious (and kinda dumb mistake) is not lost on me.
His comment is under the original post. The only people that know michaels guilt or innocence are mike or the kids. If the person knows that mike is a molestor, then clearly he’s a molestee… Get it?
That was beautiful…. Said it all, and so well.
wow. wow. wow.
This is so amazing to read, I’m close to tears. Heartfelt it is indeed and lovely. wow.
Where’s Beet these days? On weekdays it’s only Wendie writing this blog. I like Wendie, but miss Beet too.
Shes pretending to be a feminist through poorly written articles. You can see her new website in that painfully obvious, lavender colored side bar. Let me give you a clue… starts with the letter “z” and ends in the letters “completeshit”
She is also on a vacation right now spending time with her family for a reunion and wedding I believe. She is working on promoting both of her sites EB and ZL so that they can grow. What’s so wrong about trying to grow your brand and your business and branch out a little?
This site is always 1/2 wrong and unoriginal.
She is also NOT a feminist.
I wouldnt call two shit sites a fucking “brand” tard ass.
Can you give us the address of the Feminist Approval Board?
MMMkay then. I personally like “lard ass” as an insult better than “tard ass” mostly because I think they way we use the word retarded has become too hurtful so I try not use it myself. I kinda wish you would have called me a douche bag so I would be able to use one of my favorite movie lines as a response. Maybe next time, hmm?
Also, what about her tells you that she is not a feminist? I’d like to know so I could understand what you see as feminism a little better.
She sucks at it- Did another site pay you to come talk shit about evil beet & zelda lilly? If not, I wonder why you seem to know so much about two sites that you claim are such shit…probably because your on them all the time and your hatin because what ever website or blog you tried to start never even got a hit.
Just goes to show you that we all have our demons. Sometimes though the demon is more powerful than the human it possesses. I believe that he was a tortured and exploited soul and my heart literally aches for the child that he never had a chance to be. I think that he and LMP truly did have a connection, and that they truly did care for one another. If nothing else, she loved him. You can’t write words like that if you are uncarring and participating in a sham. She obviously cared and loved him very much and I can only imagine the hurt and pain she is dealing with right now. And not just with Michael. The similarities between his death and her father’s is very scary. It must be dredging up all kinds of horrible memories for her. My heart is just aching right now.
Wow. I always suspected there was a real if unconventional relationship between those two. How sad for her to relive her father’s death through Michael’s. The similarities are truly uncanny. So sad all around.
i guess he is one of those that never dies.
and he is alive now, sadly, more then in the past few years, hope he can feel, where he is, the joy he gave us all with is music and is dance.
when i was reading lisa´s words she gave me the answer i allready had in my mind, he wasn´t normal neither could any of his acts be the expected one´s from the rest of us, of course he´s marriage was weired, hey, he was michael, and he was married with elvi´s daugther. hello!!!
this guy never had the chance to meet people like we do, to get to be known for what´s inside, becouse his image proceeded him 24 on 24.
about lisa´s words, again, hope we all get the message that itsn´t worth the time you spend angry with someone, becouse one day you will be sorry for that, and you will realize you only lost precious moments.
I don´t really care about the truthness of all the expeculations around his personal life, i´m only sad that he never got the chance have a moment of a normal interaction, other from the star that shined and will shine for as long as i can remember, and further more i´m shure. I only care that he is the greatest dancer ever, invented so many moves ang gave me so many happy moments dancing on his rhythm. he made me smille from inside so many times.
hope if there is and heaven, i will have his music out there to enjoy on my eternity.
(sorry for the mistakes that i probably have on my text, but i´m portuguese and my english…. blahhhahah, what am i saying? i guess my message passed thru…)
best wishes for you all, and remember, have you called your loved one´s today?
Lisa,
What you said is so touching and filled with honest love and pain. I want you to know this is not your fault, you have no fault here all. We all let Micheal down, we won’t let him have a life, we didn’t give him any room to breath. When people went after him for things I’ve never believed, instead of standing up for him, we turned on him. When he was called names and hounded by the press, we didn’t stop buying the magazines and tabloids, no, we gave them tons of money. While he was pouring out his soul to us through his talent, we took it and gave him absolutely nothing back. At least you tried to give him love and support, you tried to save him. But the only person who could have saved him was Micheal himself. But we took so much from him, I don’t believe he knew who he was anymore. I heard on the news this morning that “he had to read the papers in the mornings to know who he was that day.” That is so profoundly sad.
This was so touching and painful and it totally erases any doubts I might have had about the validity of their marriage. You can feel her pain in those words and how hard this day is for her.
Lisa Marie is a lot more grounded than I thought.
Get out of my head, Bee Hind! All I can do is co-sign on your comments.
no she sucks not trying to be bogus but lisa had plenty of time to say something 14 yrs ru serious he would probably still be here i do blame her because she had apper time to say something instead of walking away and going a wall on him ru serious she needed to say something lisa was weak and he already was weak he dident need that he needed a strong woman seriously to help him she could of said something she said a lil something and the she left when he dident listen you dont just give up that easy i dont care how exhausted u may be that is your husband not somebody you dont care about what is wrong with her now he dead so now she want to say something she is unbelivable okay if it wasent a shame which i do belive her on okay so it wasnt a shame but if it wasnt a shame why did she act like it by leaving like that cause of his problem lisa you should of tried harder that is so true you gave up and that is not cool and ppl just trying to be nice and act like they cool with that when they know they not im being real and saying what they really wanting to say its not cool that you gave up so easy so yeah if he was my husband which i always wanted i would help him and expose him like elizabeth taylor did in 1993 even if it made him mad and i would do everything possible and i would of exposed those doctors just to help michael she needed to think and she really think hard enough DUH IF THE MAN TOLD YOU HE WAS GOING TO DIE AND HE KNEW IT BECAUSE OF WHAT HE TOLD YOU GET HIM HELP COMMON SENSE PERIOD SHE DIDENT DO THAT I FEEL LIKE SHE LET HIM AND THAT IS WRONG SHE IS RIDICULOUS AND EVERYBODY TALKING ABOUT BROOKE SHIELDS AND MAKING FRONT OF HERWHEN THEY SHOULD BE TALKIG ABOUT THIS RIDICULOUS BLOG IM DISCUSTED AND OFFENDED IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE FCK LISA MARIE PRESLY
Lisa Marie: I am so, so sorry for your loss; and his family’s, as well.
First of all Michael Jackson was a fucking child molester who bought his way out of a prison sentence. He was not found “not guilty” since all the trials ended with him settling out of court for large sums of money.
Second, Lisa Marie Presley is a Scientoligist that only married Wacko Jacko to recruit him into their cult. In case you haven’t noticed Scientologists love recruiting celebs as a recruitment tool. They have been targeting celebs since the very early days and you can actually read memos where they list celebs from the 50’s & 60’s that they wanted to recruit.
She even admits in these quotes that she was not married to him for love. She was a Scientologist that was trying to recruit him 1) for his fame and 2) for his money
> I wanted to “save him”
> I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.
The last quote is especially ironic since Scientologists are nothing more that vampires feeding off people’s miseries and draining their bank accounts.
“First of all Michael Jackson was a fucking child molester who bought his way out of a prison sentence. He was not found “not guilty” since all the trials ended with him settling out of court for large sums of money.”
I love you pookums.
She like had nothing but nice to say about MJ during the barbara walters interview and many other times.. now she tells us he was suicidal and drug obsessed, and what other naughty boy secrets is she keeping?… Oh well.. she was on to the next famous man; engaged to Nick Cage and drove him to crazy with her spoiled rich-bitch girl antics, tossing his expensive ring overboard because he like comics.. finally settling on a freaky geek to play dress up and house with.. I hardly think she is a reliable as any compassionate, savy woman, with a drug dead father either. Poor Michael.. I share his pain and couldn’t do a thing about it.. He paid me well too.
Presley filed for divorce from MJ in January 1996, but the couple remained friendly. In 2005, Presley was considered as a witness for Jackson’s trial after he had been charged with child molestation. She was reported to have said, “I saw things I couldn’t do anything about”. Later she released a statement saying that she never saw her then-husband engage in “improper behavior with children”. Given her strange upbringing and acceptance of things as normal in HER life what do we think is improper with her? Jackson was found not guilty of the charges.
…but then she suffers from absent parent syndrome..
After her father’s death, Presley had serious problems with her mother Priscilla, particularly because Priscilla’s live-in boyfriend Michael Edwards, Presley claims, made advances toward her. Her mother was often away due to the schedule of her television series, Dallas, while Presley was left with Edwards. After Edwards and Priscilla Presley broke up, Edwards wrote a book entitled Priscilla, Elvis, & Me, which included details of his lust for Lisa Marie. And I bet PRISSY was SHOCKED SOOOOO SHOCKED!!!
By age fourteen, Lias Marie had started taking drugs. Presley’s mother sent her to several boarding schools. She attended the 10th grade at an alternative boarding school in Ojai, California, called Happy Valley School. The last secondary school she attended was the Scientology-affiliated Apple School (later known as Los Feliz Hills School) in Los Angeles. Oh this one is in still as much trouble as her addict-crazy-deviant pals and lovers! Hollywood and entertainers suck.
lol it’s kinda sad you have so much time to study and analyze lmp. You people are all pathetic
Uhhhh no if you read all of her interviews you’d know why she said she “saw things I couldnt so anything about” that statement had absolutely nothing to do with children. Days before she asked for a divorce, he was hospitalized for exhaustion (after collapsing during a rehearsal for an HBO special) and during her visitation she started asking one too many questions on what he was doing to himself hence the “self-destructive behavior” and he asked her to leave the hospital because she was “causing trouble”. &Basically she figured out his whole addiction to perscription drugs; she couldnt help him anymore than she had attemtped to.
The people who accused him of molesting their kids had a history or extorting people and claimed an unglodly amount of false accusations in the past. I believe their was a whole article about all the contradictions in that trial in GQ Magazine.
I just what to sa that all the things Lisa Marie Presley said on her blog is that is was good of the things of Michael Jackson and Lisa’s life together and i would like to meet her cause then i can ask quistion’s about her and Michael Jackson and what he is like and that kind of stuff but i do wish i can see here and Michael Jackson was alive i can talk to him and tell him iLOVE him and that i am his number 1 FAN and that is pretty much all i what to say about it and that is why i what to win a chance to see Lisa Marie Presley and to at leat win three days two nights to stay with her for a ll the quston’s that i woukd really LOVE to tell her and all that kind of stuff i would what to ask and thank for ur time.
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Lisa was so angry because Michael no longer was “in love” with her. It is the person who was spurned who gets so angry and wants to hurt back…”Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned”.
She claimed he was a regular guy that cursed all the time. I think he probably was a regular guy but SHE was the one who cursed all the time.
I just thought the marriage did not work out and even though she said more than she should have about their marriage, I thought it was prompted mainly by her hurt and frustration.
THEN I recently read part of the Oprah interview with her and her mother, Priscilla. This interview was given during “the trial” and Lisa claimed that Michael manipulated her, snowed her and she was used. Priscilla had some choice words to say also, but we already knew she was opposed to the marriage and thought he used Lisa Marie. To say something like that to a TV audience when he was going through that trial is inexcusable to me.
That is kicking someone when they are down.
All she cared about was distancing herself from him and making HERSELF look good in the public eye.
No wonder she was so “gutted” by his death. She has plenty to feel guilty about.
Michael probably forgave her but I don’t.